- me at 7AM: tired
- me at 12PM: tired
- me at 3PM: tired
- me at 7PM: tired
- me at 10PM: tired
- me at 2AM: TIME TO REDECORATE MY ENTIRE ROOM
I found a letter from and to myself from last year, so I followed up.
August 13, 2013
I happened to look back and notice that today you went to SF with Ravee, Carolyn, and baby Sammy. It’s 2010, you’re just beginning your second year of college, and you have a lot ahead of you. I’m glad you liked Japantown, and daiso, and that giant stuffed totoro… Just so you know, you still like Japantown, and daiso, and any sort of totoro. Yeah kid, I gotta hand it to you, you’ve been pretty consistent as far as interests go. Take it easy on all the spam and the hi chew and the boba… Haha! I wish, I wish I could really speak to you kid, I know you’re feeling really grown up, but in three years you’re gonna look back and realize how much you’ve grown since today. There’s gonna be situations that happen with the people you’re the closest to now that are gonna change you. I wish I could warn you, to tell you to not get hurt, to protect your heart, to not get bitter. You trust so easily kid, you fall so fast… Please, be careful with your heart. Even your best friends are gonna fail you and make you feel like you’re the worst person in the world. And you’re gonna fail them too, you’re gonna make some big mistakes, Dev. But it’s ok because life goes on and you’ll always have the opportunity to grow from painful situations. No matter how hard it gets, don’t give up… Just stay focused on Jesus, even when everything else is trying to catch your eye. Love yourself more, it will help you to love others better too.
July 9, 2014
It hasn’t even been a year since you wrote that letter to 19 year old us, so here’s a letter from 23 year old us to 22 year old us haha… you forget your own advice so quickly. But you know what, you’ll always make mistakes and you’ll never completely understand everything. Don’t use this as an excuse to backslide ok? Pursue God and your healing like you’re getting paid for it. My goodness, girl… Just stay focused on Jesus! That pain you feel now, it’ll fade. You may feel numb to it, but God is gonna heal your heart and restore things to better than they ever were. Also, don’t be discouraged by mistakes, just freakin learn from them. And don’t repeat them! Ugh, if only you could hear this. You have so much potential, just walk in it!! Walk in the gifts God has given you, live a life worthy of the calling He’s placed on you. Although I really believe that the mistakes we made this past year helped to push us to grow more. Lol, it’s funny to look back and feel like, “wow, I thought I was grown then”, but really so much has changed in the past 11 months. Those same things that tore you down, will build you back up, it’s a process… Just hold on. And I’m sure that I’ll look back and laugh at how mature I thought I was today. Anyway, be good to yourself, and those around you. Don’t neglect friendships, and stay fixed on Jesus. And future self, I’m gonna try my best to really stay focused. I pray that when you read this, you’ll be proud of me. I pray I will be walking out what I know is inside of you, of me. I pray for you, future self, that you are encouraged and are pushing forward. Stop boxing the air if you are, run to that goal, woman! Purpose in every step!
-Charles Bukowski, Screams From the Balcony (via huluh)